Step 2: Recognize Your Ego
To many, the word ego means, “I”, “self” or “identity”. In the clearing of your spiritual energy, we refer to the “ego-self” as the opposite end of where we want to be on our spiritual journey. One end the spiritual journey is the “ego-self” and the opposite end is “I am” or the God-self. Ego-self is that of operating from fear, greed, self-righteousness, pride, jealousy, anxiety, or a need for power and control. Operating from “I am”or God-self is that of living from an understanding that you are not a sum of what you do, how you are viewed by others, your talents, your specialness, your looks or how you behave. You are simply a loving, living being who is a perfect manifestation of your creator… you are living from a place of “I am”.
One of my beautiful teachers, Renee Beese, taught me about recognizing who’s on top. She explains that there are always one of four places of self you will operate from in your actions, reactions and existence: the ego-self, the child-self, the wise woman or man or that of operating from love and light, or God-self. A next possible step in our evolutionary process is to learn to recognize who is on top.
The Ego-Self
Needing to be right, fear, greed, self-righteousness, pride, jealousy, anxiety, needing power, needing to control others or your environment.
When you see one of these surface in you actions, thoughts, beliefs or reactions, take a moment and recognize it for what it is…your ego. Our egos have a purpose and need to be in place because we are spirits having a human existence in a sometimes brutal place–we must fear danger, we must exercise some control and it is often our ego that gives us a fighting spirit and motivation, sometimes misguided motivation, but motivation nonetheless. We can’t eliminate our ego, we are human, but we can recognize when it surfaces and then begin the journey of learning to significantly soften its blows.

The Child-Self
Very often, when the ego surfaces from ourselves or others, we feel hurt, sad,depressed, offended, or angry. These are described as child-self reactions. It is usually something we are holding within ourselves that has caused the emotional reaction. For example, someone may not have wanted you along on an excursion. A child-self reaction might be to feel hurt and sad, but what is below the surface is a scar from feeling rejected or unworthy of someone’s love in your past. That scar is what actually caused the sadness or hurt to surface. Until we clear the deep rooted cause of your sadness, we need to recognize that the child-self is on top and validate the feelings that have surfaced. If you are sad, imagine yourself holding yourself and acknowledge and validate that you have pain surfacing, if you are angry, go for a walk, hit a pillow and let the anger flow in a safe manner not directed toward anyone else, and once you address the child feelings, move to a place of wisdom.
It is not wise to ignore or bury your emotions, but it is wise to recognize, validate, and acknowledge the emotions for what they are without involving anyone else in on your emotional release that causes them to feel blame or responsible for that emotional release.

Wise-Woman or Wise-Man

Once we recognize either a reaction from ego-self or recognize and validate a reaction from child-self we can then move into a place of wisdom. Operating from wise-self, or wise-woman or wise-man means that we can understand how to process reactions, situations or experiences beyond our ego and emotion. We are able to look at any situation and look for the deep rooted cause of our or someone else’s behavior and respond to that cause with insight into the potential of the situation. Keep in mind that any reaction we have is usually a result of an experience in our past, how we learned to react or behave or due to the environment we were raised in. This is true of anyone interacting with you as well. Once we learn to try to see any situation from a wise analysis of the potential cause of another’s reaction or a wise analysis of how the situation developed we can then rationally examine how we want to react. Think of this simple example: A car swerves in front of you in a seemingly reckless manner. You are caused to slam on your breaks, barely missing this car as it drives away oblivious to your fright and drastic reaction. You have a choice as to who will surface? Will ego-self surface, “How dare he do this to me, I feel slighted and annoyed! No one treats me that way! What an idiot!.” Will your child-self surface? Will you either cry or tumble into an explosive episode of road rage? Or will your wise-self surface, “I have no idea what that person has gone through this morning, whether they are in an emergency, just heard their mother has cancer or are not feeling well. Therefore I am not going to worry about the experience, let it affect me negatively or spend any unnecessary energy on thinking about it any further. I have a great day to get on with.”

This wisdom is an exercise in true tolerance and love and does not happen overnight by any means. It typically takes some intense examination of why we ourselves react the way we do to situations to then understand why others react as they do. Once we get to the place of moving from child-self or ego-self into wise-self we can then move to a place of love. In the situation above, we would move into sending the person who swerved in front of us love. Love because they may be in an emergency, not feeling well or possibly in a bad state of mind. Or we will send love because that person is filled with ego-self, hatred, selfishness, greed, power or whatever negative ego they are operating from and that is never a healthy place to live from.

God-Self or “I am”
Living as God-self or “I am” is when we live from a place of love. Our wise-self is prevalent in this existence and quickly works to recognize ego and child emotion when it arises. One gets to a true place of living form love when they learn to truly love who their are first. This takes clearing of baggage and negative history and a shift in a paradigm of living. This shift in paradigm is moving from accepting what is presented as acceptable existence in society–environmental practices, governmental and political practices, financial, medical, and educational practices, our food and disparity on our planet and inequality & intolerance–to knowing that we deserve something better and beautiful for ALL. When we want to see better for ALL, we then learn to love and tolerate all that comes our way so as to bring love and light into even the seemingly worst of situations and people.

Step Three: Meditating
more to come…

Our human existence is changing, but what is it changing to? Countless individuals around our planet are experiencing a transformation in their thoughts, actions and beliefs that are propelling them toward a more loving & balanced life. If we allow our transformation to individually occur, our humanity will change collectively.

This book is a way for those curious about our transformation to lightly explore what we are transforming into and assist in opening minds to the possibilities of a better life.

This is such an important message. We have started the What If… Project with a goal of starting a school where people can learn to become a better “self”.

Please share your story of intuition…

Open your mind and your heart to possibilities!  Although we say, What if, we are also saying, “Can you imagine the possibilities?”

Think about how often people say, “Things get worse before they get better.” This is because if there is the perception that things are working there is no reason for change.  Look around at our world.  We have sickness, poverty, disparity, inequity, warring, fear, worry, and negativity staring at us from all angles of life.  Some would say that this has been this way for a long time, which is true, but look at our current realities:

• Three hundred individuals hold more wealth than the remaining seven some billion people on the planet
• The International Disaster Database recorded a total of 373 world natural disasters in 2010, which is a significant increase from the 335 recorded in 2009, but that the death toll is what is particularly discouraging, 70,087 in 2009 to 296,898 in 2010
• The Federal Reserve Board stated that the average American net worth dropped 23% in the last year, yet our cost of living continuously increases
• The Hunger Project reported that 22,000 children die each day in our world due to conditions of poverty
• The Institute for Food and Development Policy reported that 12 percent of the world’s population uses 85 percent of its water, and none of the 12 percent lives in developing countries
• A survey of netowork television found that 2% of our 6.8 billion world population is murdered each night on television shows.  Fom 2004 to 2009, there was a 120 percent increase in the depictions of violence against women on television. There was also a 400 percent increase in the depictions of violence against teenage girls during this time.
• The United States Courts reported a 27.4% increase in the filings for bankruptcy from 2009-2010
• Over 100 pesticide ingredients are suspected to cause birth defects, cancer and gene mutations -Reported by Oracle Education Foundation
• Many banks lent large sums of money to developing nations.  In order to pay those debts plus interest, many nations have turned to the mining of their natural resources as a source of financial aide -Reported by Oracle Education Foundation
• Every day 50-100 species of plants and animals become extinct as their habitat and human influences destroy them -Reported by Oracle Education Foundation

These are just a few of the statistics indicating that our human existence has not gotten better and the time is now to change.  Although this sounds alarming, what is occurring is that we are finally waking up to know thing that things have gotten to a point that we must make a change.

Sir David R. Hawkins, M.D., Ph.D. is a nationally renowned psychiatrist, physician, researcher, spiritual teacher and lecturer.  His work, resulting from a 25 year study, incorporates findings from quantum physics and nonlinear dynamics, confirming the “stages” of spiritual evolution.  In other words, he has worked for years to develop  a “Map of Consciousness” (Power Vs. Force, 2002, by David R. Hawkins, M.D., Ph.D.)

What this map indicates is that there are definable levels of consciousness on Earth ranging between 1 and 1000.  One being the lowest level of spiritual awakening and 1000 representing the highest.

• 20=Shame
• 30=Guilt
• 50=Apathy
• 75=Grief
• 100=Fear
• 125=Desire
• 150=Anger
• 175=Pride
• 200=Courage
• 250=Neutrality
• 310=Willingness
• 350=Acceptance
• 400=Reason
• 500=Love
• 540=Joy
• 600=Oneness
• 700-1000=Enlightenment

Until recently, 85% of our Earth population was below a 200.  Things have changed.  According to his research and calibrations, our Earth has enough individuals calibrating at higher levels, that they offset our total world calibration levels to bring it over 200.  What does this mean?  We are finally in a place where we can accept our movement from lower calibrating consciousness into a life of love.

Dr. Hawkins work is only one example of how we know we are transforming our humanity.  There are an abundance of spiritual healers, prophets and channelers who have “known” and felt our shift coming.  It is time to embrace this shift and bring it into reality.

A message from Kelly:  As you can read about in Kelly’s Korner, I have experienced a life of heightened intuition.  One of the things that occurs with me is that of being an empath.  Empaths are highly sensitive instruments when it comes to emotions, and because of that are less apt to intellectualize feelings. The trademark of an empath is that they know where you’re coming from emotionally and what you hold inside.  When I meet someone I can feel what they feel and if I purposefully open up to their emotions I can feel their deep level of self-worth.  One thing I have discovered is that about 80% of the people I encounter are suffering from a lowered self-image, which in turn drives their behavior and their ability to attract what they want.  What I encounter with many men is a sense of deep-rooted self -loathing, and in women it is a deep-rooted lack of self-worth.  I do not believe most people are conscious of this inner belief, but I do believe we can see it manifest in our outer existence.

I know we do not have to hold these beliefs.  To explain how I know this I want to share my own vulnerable story of clearing so that you too can see what we can transform from.

On my spiritual journey, I went through an experience where I discovered my own deep-rooted, low self-image. There was a period in my life where I was attracting bad relationships, unfulfilled friendships and illness.  At one point I had just gone through a difficult breakup and was quite ill.  Feeling beaten and at the end of my rope, I called my dear friend Renee Beese, a beautiful spiritual healer and spiritual mentor.  I cried, exhausted, and told her that I never wanted to attract a bad relationship again and that I was so tired of being sick.  I said that I knew I was attracting this somehow, but didn’t know why.  Renee was so patient and said, “Kelly, tell me about yourself.”  I responded that I was a confident, kind, intelligent, successful woman.  I also said that I was a good friend and mother; all of which I believed.  She paused and said, “Ok.  Now let’s go behind all of  that.”  I think I responded with an expletive of some sort, not wanting to go there, but resigned quickly wanting to make a change.  She continued and took me to examining myself behind what I saw on the surface.  After a difficult period of resignation, I finally admitted that maybe I was sometimes insecure.  She then had me go behind that, and after more tears and exhaustion, I finally I came upon what I truly thought of myself at a very deep-rooted level–beliefs about myself I did not even know I had.  I had come up with four painful statements about myself:  ”I am bad,” “I am worthless,” “I am sick,” and “I am broken.”  I was stunned.  

Renee taught me an exercise of clearing where I went into the root cause of those statements and felt the emotions associated with each of them.  She taught me to breathe into them, hold them, acknowledge and validate them.  She also taught me to release them, stating that I understand why they were there, but it is time for them to leave, I have no use for them at this time in my life. After teaching me the technique of release, she told me to go about my day and after a few hours to sit in meditation and go through the exercises.  

I meditated for an hour and a half without knowing a minute went by.  In this meditation I was flooded with childhood and current memories and emotions that presented themselves as the cause of my four statements.  One by one I acknowledged memories and emotions, I validated them and saw how they manifested themselves into my present day experiences.  I was stunned when I realized that the memories that showed themselves to me were not so bad–friends were mean to me, I fought with my sisters, I got a divorce, I had premarital sex and so on.  There was nothing in those experiences that was so bad that I should say I am bad, worthless, sick and broken.  I realized at that point how easy it is to build baggage.  don Miguel Ruiz wrote in his book, The Four Agreements, about Mitote–the disease of the mind.  I experienced first hand how we build a mental disease in our minds based on what we are told we are, how we perceive our worth and how our society dictates our right and wrong.

Clearing this baggage was not an overnight process, but after a couple of weeks I felt free, light and balanced and have since engaged in many clearing exercises so that only love can emanate from me. Some funny things happened after that initial clearing–negative friends simply floated out of my life and positive supportive friends replaced them.  A beautiful, positive man appeared in my life.  I was not sick anymore and no longer felt broken.  It wasn’t long after that I became a Reiki Master and electromagnetic field practitioner and now work with others to heal the “broken” and clear their unwanted baggage.

I share this story because I personally realized how easily we become beings who experience suffering, loneliness, longing, competition and need and I want the world to clear, balance and experience a profound sense of self-love.

We Are Beings of Light

We are spiritual beings having a Hu-man experience.
Happiness is our Divine inheritance.
The Key is in the Feeling
Love is the invisible
We Are The One’s We’ve Been Waiting For.
We Are Re-Turn-In Home
To Our Great Central Sun
We Live In A Many and One Universe
We Are Like water Drops In The Ocean of Love
We Are The Light Beings Carriers of Love

~Emanuehl

Your birthright is to live in harmony with the Earth, to feel pure love in your being and the power you have as a creator of more love.   The more that we connect with this source love, or source light, and feel the qualities of Wisdom and Love it brings with it, we will then become a light to the world.   As you become aware of the power of this loving, light source it will awaken within you and radiate from you so that you then become a light to the world. This is the way to peace on Earth and good will among all beings.

Let these words reverberate within you.  Our society, our world and our existence is nothing more than a collection of individuals living in harmony or disharmony together.  Together we form our beliefs, our norms, what we tolerate or don’t tolerate.  TOGETHER we can change our existence to something we desire.  It may seem overwhelming to think we can change to a life that is loving, supportive, & easy, but just remember that all change starts somewhere…let’s start here.

We do have the power to change our humanity.

You must want our existence to change, envision what you want it to change into and work collectively to co-create a world you want to exist within.  Believe that you can make a difference, be vocal about this change and intolerant of things that do not support this change you want to see.

Sit quietly and reflect upon your society, our humanity and your life.  Make a list of all of the things that you love about our human existence, then make a list of all the things you do not love about it.  Ask yourself why we, as a collective humanity, tolerate inhumane treatment, unhealthy foods and environmental practices, dishonesty in our leadership, or an economy that does not support harmony and happiness.

For most people there is a sense of a lack of control surrounding these issues.  Shift your thinking and beliefs into an understanding that we do have control.  Think of it this way, if 80% of the population is complacent about what we don’t want, we will continue to remain where we are, but if 80% of our population is active in our seeking a better life for us, we will manifest that desire.